I Don't Care Anymore

At least not for a good while. I just can't watch a team not give a shit after listening to all the bullshit about being bigger and tougher and just all of it. I, at least, cared under Jones enough to want them to lose in order to get rid of that cancer. Unfortunately, we've seemed to be cured of Liver Cancer only to get Pancreatic Cancer.

I just, at 42 years old, and watching the same shit year after year after year, can't muster up any more emotion to really get mad, incredulous or anything other than resigned. Will we fire Pruitt? Probably sometime in the next 2-3 years. Will we look like dog shit for the duration of this carnage? Yes. Why bother as a fan? I've got better things to do in my life than to really worry about this shit anymore.

 

I'm just glad I don't live in bammer anymore. Heck, after tonight, I'm just glad I don't live in the States right now. No having to talk about football tomorrow or next week is going to be great.

 

Piss off

 

I ended up ordering Chinese food from the place I hate. Because why not.

 

Yeah, I know.

 

You know what is really sad? This is not going to be a major story in college football. This is not Michigan losing to Appalachian State. Outside of the SEC, no one will even notice. It won't even register.

 

I've got battered fan syndrome. I always come crawling back even though I know the abuse is coming.

 

I got in trouble for my initial food answer for what I felt like tonight. Apparently "dipping my head in a deep fryer and eating my own face" is "disturbing" and "gross."

 

Growing up, I used to be sick to my stomach for a week after any loss. Nowadays it honestly doesn’t even bother me. Guess I’ve become numb to it.

 

I really wanna check out.

 

Shell eventially get used to it and just ignore it. Trust me on this one.

 

I remember thinking that Butch Jones was rock bottom. But I’m learning to never underestimate God’s hate for Tennessee.

 

Welcome to the Hotel Tennessee. You can check out any time you like, but you can never leave.

 

I got an upset alert from an app about it, and thought, “Why?”

 

#metoo

 

I still care. But I can’t justify spending money on it for the time being.

 

I was trying to convince my wife we should consider going in on season tickets with someone. Imagine that. Committing to 8 hour drives multiple times a Fall for thousands of dollars. Wow. I really wish Pruitt wouldn't do me these kinds of favors.

 

10 years ago, this would have ruined my entire week... 5 years ago I would have ranted and raved and gotten over it but today? Today, I feel nothing. Not anger, not resignation, not even chuckling at the futility. I just feel nothing. Like if it were Kansas State losing or some other team that isn’t even on my radar...

 

We were planning on going next week. It’s not worth spending $1 and then getting home at 1 am