Can I Get Banned Before This Thread Hits 100 Replies? You Bet.

Discussion in 'The Thunderdome' started by Ac'Shun Jackson, Oct 9, 2011.

  1. Serious post. Let's leave in the past all the trolling/pissing off people I've done.

    I am depressed as [uck fay]. Long story short, I'm lucky enough to supposedly have AS and SAD; I also experience random bouts of depression. I often question the point of life, etc. Have contemplated suicide. Only thing I really have is my intelligence- and the social aspect of it sucks [Richard].

    I had developed a friendship with an utterly fabulous woman. She is gorgeous. I loved talking to her. Brilliant as Hell. She was born in UWS, Manhattan. Rich kid who pissed it all away with her immaturity, drugs, etc. Now, she's a model/comedian/blogger in Los Angeles. We got along exceedingly well. The problem in her eyes: I'm 19. She's 32. We chatted for months. I started to "smother her", which I think is horseshit code for "made her feel too emotionally involved." We had some words. I, in my typical socially retarded way, said some nasty things and contacted her freakin' work. I told them that she was hateful to Autistic kids. Boom. I apologized, contacted her employer and told them the actual story (she didn't get in trouble, btw), and the rest is history. I have tried, repeatedly, and I use that term in a conservative sense (think 10-100 messages a day) to rectify our issue. She won't respond. It is the most tragic event to ever happen in my life. I so dearly miss her. I have been thinking about suicide.

    How should I handle this?

    Sincerely,

    A Humbled and Devastated Ax
     
    Last edited: Oct 9, 2011
  2. volfanbill

    volfanbill Active Member

    you should handle it by growing up and moving on.
     
  3. USAF_Vol

    USAF_Vol Super Mod / Defender of Freedom

    Not to cound cliche but suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I have known two people who have killed themselves, all over women. Do not be selfish. Go get help, go talk to someone.

    It sounds like an awful situation with this woman, but as stated, move on. There are alot of them out there.

    Seriously go talk to someone. Talking about suicide is a real problem. I hope you are ok and only said it out of extreme emotion.
     
  4. For those on this board who hate me:

    Here's a pic:

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    I screwed the mother [uck fay]ing pooch on this one, but you can rest assured that when I get it right, I'll get it [uck fay]ing right, if you know what I mean.

    She'd intellectually kick asses, too. God damn shame.
     
  5. I see my psych on Wednesday. I felt we would be such a badass combination. It was like freakin' Kiffin and Orgeron running roughshod over mofos.
     
  6. USAF_Vol

    USAF_Vol Super Mod / Defender of Freedom

    You should call your psychologist now if you are contemplating suicide.
     
  7. droski

    droski Super Moderator

    Get the [uck fay] over yourself.
     
  8. I'm very thankful to whoever admitted me. Obviously very thankful to Hat, who has been a friend to me when I needed one for a long time now. Talking with just three people in this thread helps a lot.

    I once met a former Marine. He was one of the seals involved with Operation Just Cause. He told me I had a chance to become special if I ever got my head on straight. I just can't get it together yet. I'm a social disaster. Hell, I've probably already offended someone with this very post.
     
  9. IP

    IP Grusader Knight Errant of the 8th Order

    You'll look back this in a year or two and realize it was no big deal. Did you ever even meet this woman?
     
  10. fl0at_

    fl0at_ Humorless, asinine, joyless pr*ck

    Can't think of a single person who hasn't had a bad "breakup" / falling out with a chic. Congratulations. You may think it is all over, life sucks, never find anyone else, yada yada, but the truth is this: You have now grown up a little bit more.

    Dare yourself to do better, even if you think she is the best out there. Make years of women prove you right. If you are a highly intelligent and motivated individual, test the hypothesis that she is the best out there. Find someone else, and see, and keep going until you've sampled the entire population.
     
  11. You're a smart guy, Droski, so I won't respond in a contentious manner. Hope all is well in California! Tell Jerry to suck a [Richard], will ya?
     
  12. droski

    droski Super Moderator

    stop being a self absorbed asshole. if this is even remotely serious go talk to someone you actually know. i know people that have killed themselves and i assure you posting on a messageboard first was not something that happened.
     
  13. No, but I opened up to her. Told her my deepest secrets. She freakin' called me her knight in shining armor. We actually met after I called some socialist hack an idiot on the New York Times website.
     
  14. I don't [uck fay]ing have anyone else.
     
  15. She's actually very "active" online. Has her own website. Not sure she could be lured over here with my presence, though.
     
  16. droski

    droski Super Moderator

    jesus join a D&D club and get over it
     
  17. droski

    droski Super Moderator

    you might want to ask yourself what exactly that is true. many of us weren't the most popular people on the planet at your age, but still had friends.
     
  18. Had to look up D&D. Does not interest.
     
  19. droski

    droski Super Moderator

    since you have so many friends i can see why you are so selective.
     
  20. I didn't say anything about the people who play it. I just don't give a crap about "games." I am much more interested in the inevitable economic collapse of China, Morgan Stanley's black soil in Ukraine, and the redevelopment of Lower Manhattan. It's freakin' hard to find people interested in that stuff, much less at 19, much less able to converse with knowledge of it.
     

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